that i'm waiting in the office for shitload of files to convert, while listening to Imogen Heap's Wait It Out?
i think it's funny.
anyway. been trying to write a story. an idea for a short film. took a couple days to write, and it was going pretty well, until i stopped believing in my story.
why? i don't know. just did. it didn't feel very special after a while. kinda felt like someone else had already taken the story.
aside from writing that story, been filling my head with all sorts of other distractions. books. music. photoshopping. work, evidently. because every time i stop, the void returns and i get scared. i don't even know where it came from.
bah. stupid emotions. stupid converter. stupid everything.
ha, sorry. a not very sensible and rather non committal post today. just need to type for my sanity tonight. still deciding if i should stay overnight in office. hate leaving things half done. bloody hell.
i may need supperclub on sat.
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Monday, November 2, 2009
doctors today
need to learn to treat their patients like humans.
i stormed out of the doc's office today. after waiting for 2 hours, during which i suffered 2 or 3 excruciating stomach spasms, the doc dismissed me after a mere 3 minute consultation.
yes, i know the polyclinic is busiest on mondays and you need to wrap up each case as quickly as possible. that's fine. at least look me in the damn eye and do not treat me like i'm just another teenager looking for an mc. because i was in genuine pain, but you didn't seem to believe me.
even family doctors today aren't very family-oriented at all! nor dentists. i hate walking a room full of people wearing face masks who don't really acknowledge you, then charge you a hell of a sum for a brief consultation.
i understand you all have a job to do. all i am asking is to remember that your patients are people, not "cases". FYI, you are holding one of the highest paying jobs in society. it won't hurt to be a little nicer.
i stormed out of the doc's office today. after waiting for 2 hours, during which i suffered 2 or 3 excruciating stomach spasms, the doc dismissed me after a mere 3 minute consultation.
yes, i know the polyclinic is busiest on mondays and you need to wrap up each case as quickly as possible. that's fine. at least look me in the damn eye and do not treat me like i'm just another teenager looking for an mc. because i was in genuine pain, but you didn't seem to believe me.
even family doctors today aren't very family-oriented at all! nor dentists. i hate walking a room full of people wearing face masks who don't really acknowledge you, then charge you a hell of a sum for a brief consultation.
i understand you all have a job to do. all i am asking is to remember that your patients are people, not "cases". FYI, you are holding one of the highest paying jobs in society. it won't hurt to be a little nicer.
Thursday, October 29, 2009
flickr
updated.
whole day shoot today. brain's dead. so are my legs. twas fun tho.
i feel like a rant. been thinking a lot lately. but these eyelids weigh a ton and my brain's working at about 5%. so ima rant another time.
goodnight, now.
p.s. happy birthday, baby sister.
whole day shoot today. brain's dead. so are my legs. twas fun tho.
i feel like a rant. been thinking a lot lately. but these eyelids weigh a ton and my brain's working at about 5%. so ima rant another time.
goodnight, now.
p.s. happy birthday, baby sister.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Thursday, October 22, 2009
HELLOHELLOHELLOHELLOHELLO
HELLOHELLO I AM FINALLY BLOGGING
not that anyone has missed me here. BUT YES. i am blogging.
i'm taking a break. logging is getting to me. i wanna do transcribinggg. and cutting screeners is a scary task, especially when you know how high the expectation is. sigh.
but anyhow. great time catching up with nad, cheryl & zaf last night. HAPPY BIRTHDAY NADIAH (HAZWANI? lol) it's always nice to reminisce about our tard days in yishun town. and nad drives! i have a friend who drives now!!! we're officially cool.
speaking of cool, i realized in general society, you're 'cool' if you do/have the following traits:
• you are fluent in vulgarities (of various languages and dialects)
• you smoke
• you adopt a bad-ass, screw-the-world-type-attitude
• you are selective with your friends
• you're thin beyond words (if you're a girl)
• you're a wisecrack (if you're a guy)
• (?)
i probably only fit one of the points above. which i'm not proud of. i think it's sad that our definition of cool has become that warped. i mean, no one would actually admit those are 'cool' traits. but reality proves it. i see it happening around me everyday. and i don't think that idea will change any time soon.
BUT THEN i was also thinking lately. i've come to the conclusion that things HAVE to suck. things can't go smoothly. they're not meant to. we need sadness. we need anger. we need grief. we can't live in a perfect world. i think that would be boring. but then, i thought, what the hell would heaven be like, then? (haha, get it, what the HELL, and, HEAVEN ha ha) but then again, the bible says that Jesus loves parties. He was always goin to parties. so yeah. parties are good. so i guess it's okay that heaven's perfect.
kay enough rant. better get back to the logging. zz.
not that anyone has missed me here. BUT YES. i am blogging.
i'm taking a break. logging is getting to me. i wanna do transcribinggg. and cutting screeners is a scary task, especially when you know how high the expectation is. sigh.
but anyhow. great time catching up with nad, cheryl & zaf last night. HAPPY BIRTHDAY NADIAH (HAZWANI? lol) it's always nice to reminisce about our tard days in yishun town. and nad drives! i have a friend who drives now!!! we're officially cool.
speaking of cool, i realized in general society, you're 'cool' if you do/have the following traits:
• you are fluent in vulgarities (of various languages and dialects)
• you smoke
• you adopt a bad-ass, screw-the-world-type-attitude
• you are selective with your friends
• you're thin beyond words (if you're a girl)
• you're a wisecrack (if you're a guy)
• (?)
i probably only fit one of the points above. which i'm not proud of. i think it's sad that our definition of cool has become that warped. i mean, no one would actually admit those are 'cool' traits. but reality proves it. i see it happening around me everyday. and i don't think that idea will change any time soon.
BUT THEN i was also thinking lately. i've come to the conclusion that things HAVE to suck. things can't go smoothly. they're not meant to. we need sadness. we need anger. we need grief. we can't live in a perfect world. i think that would be boring. but then, i thought, what the hell would heaven be like, then? (haha, get it, what the HELL, and, HEAVEN ha ha) but then again, the bible says that Jesus loves parties. He was always goin to parties. so yeah. parties are good. so i guess it's okay that heaven's perfect.
kay enough rant. better get back to the logging. zz.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
to make instant noodles,
or not to make instant noodles. that is tonight's question.
i've been eating a whole lot lately. and i end up getting really full, and then really hungry just minutes after.
what's happening!??
anyway. got the mac back. it's literally brand new. and that sucks. i miss my worn out stickers on the deck. and my folders and folders of useless but pretty images. and the million bookmarked pages on my firefox. but oh well.
the weekends are over. a new work week's on it's way OH SH-- MONTHLY LOG DUE. curses. christmas needs to happen soon. we need a little merry in the dull.
i've been eating a whole lot lately. and i end up getting really full, and then really hungry just minutes after.
what's happening!??
anyway. got the mac back. it's literally brand new. and that sucks. i miss my worn out stickers on the deck. and my folders and folders of useless but pretty images. and the million bookmarked pages on my firefox. but oh well.
the weekends are over. a new work week's on it's way OH SH-- MONTHLY LOG DUE. curses. christmas needs to happen soon. we need a little merry in the dull.
Monday, October 5, 2009
18 weeks,
just 18 more weeks. COME ON.
i realized how much i despise routine. not that i am in love with complete spontaneity. but the thought of sitting in an office all day, 5 days a week, in front of the computer, with an hour lunch break at someplace usually utterly unexciting, and facing horrendous traffic going home, puts me in a very lousy mood.
so i'm wholly grateful whenever i get to run little errands outside of the office or go on shoots. not sure if the life of a film editor is what i really want. UNLESS i get full reign over all my projects. muaha. which is of course, unlikely. pft
but that i shall worry about later in life. right now, i miss my friends, my MAC, my school (wut!?), my holidays, my music, my tumblr... every day is one day closer to freedom.
i shall be waiting. :)
P.S. GLEE IS AMAZING!
i realized how much i despise routine. not that i am in love with complete spontaneity. but the thought of sitting in an office all day, 5 days a week, in front of the computer, with an hour lunch break at someplace usually utterly unexciting, and facing horrendous traffic going home, puts me in a very lousy mood.
so i'm wholly grateful whenever i get to run little errands outside of the office or go on shoots. not sure if the life of a film editor is what i really want. UNLESS i get full reign over all my projects. muaha. which is of course, unlikely. pft
but that i shall worry about later in life. right now, i miss my friends, my MAC, my school (wut!?), my holidays, my music, my tumblr... every day is one day closer to freedom.
i shall be waiting. :)
P.S. GLEE IS AMAZING!
Friday, October 2, 2009
Monday, September 28, 2009
you know,
sometimes i really don't know what to say.
i know in retrospect, you probably don't mean it. but you have no idea how at that point in time, that one simple phrase or mild action of yours can cut a person right through the heart. a person who loves you more than you are aware of. and you have no clue! you sit there, and go back to watching your stupid telly series and your online books and e-shopping, anything else but your textbooks and math homework, which, by the way, you should be taking very seriously at this point. hello!? you have less than a month. and you REFUSE any help from ANYONE, yet you complain like nobody's business about how badly you're doing, and you push the blame to your teachers, your school, everyone except yourself.
i really don't know what you expect. and not that i've been such a great and noble older sibling. i try my best. but this isn't about me being a good sister. this is about what kind of person you are turning out to be. and because you are as stubborn as a million mules put together, i don't know who can help you.
so for now, i can only pray. i hope you wake up.
i know in retrospect, you probably don't mean it. but you have no idea how at that point in time, that one simple phrase or mild action of yours can cut a person right through the heart. a person who loves you more than you are aware of. and you have no clue! you sit there, and go back to watching your stupid telly series and your online books and e-shopping, anything else but your textbooks and math homework, which, by the way, you should be taking very seriously at this point. hello!? you have less than a month. and you REFUSE any help from ANYONE, yet you complain like nobody's business about how badly you're doing, and you push the blame to your teachers, your school, everyone except yourself.
i really don't know what you expect. and not that i've been such a great and noble older sibling. i try my best. but this isn't about me being a good sister. this is about what kind of person you are turning out to be. and because you are as stubborn as a million mules put together, i don't know who can help you.
so for now, i can only pray. i hope you wake up.
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